I have ginger hair. And yes, that kind of changed my life enough to write this blog post, to re-do the whole look of my blog, Instagram account and my “brand” and think about even bigger life changes. It has brought out something in me that was missing.
Let’s discuss shall we?
I lost my dad a little over a month ago. He lost his fight with his brain tumor and I am still dealing with all the emotions that come with grief, but deep down I am happy for him because he fought long and hard and he deserved his peace. Now I just need to make peace with it.
The loss taught me a lot about myself and life. It put me into a heavy slump that I didn’t think I would come out of. For the first time in my life I had no control over my feelings. I couldn’t just get up and look on the bright side. It took a lot for me to even put a fake smile on my face. But more than that I just had to look inside and decide what I want out of life. Small things like knowing he will never meet his grandchild and vice versa were eating at me so I am in the process of reassessing basically everything in my life.
One of the quickest ways to make a change is hair – it makes you feel like a different person, it’s exciting and it would be an instant change (whereas some of the other changes may take months or even years). So I went for it and it was the best decision I have made in months because it lit a fire in me and I am determined to let that fire burn long and bright.
The hair led to the blog change. I love this space but I pretty much abandoned it because you know how things go. I was feeling quite meh about my space and comparison was eating at me so I took a small break and now I am feeling motivated and pumped to continue the Kandidly Kerry journey and hope that you will come along with me.
I am also turning 30 in August. It used to scare me, it doesn’t anymore because I know what ageing has done for me already, it has allowed me to come into my own and it continues to do so, and of course, I know more than ever that it is a privilege.
At the beginning of the year I also chose the word “growth” as my word for 2019 so since it’s nearly June I think I need to get my ass into gear and start exploring this growth thing.
They say that a woman who changes her hair is about to change her life and I can confirm that is not just a cliché but is 100% true. I didn’t ask for all the changes I was given but I am going to do my best to go with it and see where this phase of life leads me because I am grateful to have life, and good hair.